I grew up thinking I had to earn God’s love. My home church taught not only the things we should believe, but also the things we had to do, or rather, not do. When I inevitably failed, as all fallible people do, I would get down on myself. I was different than other kids. Not only was I different because I was a Christian (and most of my friends were not), but I was also different because I was not even a good Christian.